ok, right now, ben xiao jie is feeling a bit of everything! happy, sad, angry, irritated, worried, disappointed, whatever. who cares. this feeling basically sucks. neh. so anyway, today is the 10th of november! haha how time flies.

mms. recently, i went to catch the game plan with cheryl and royston after OP. mms. i should be really really happy now that pw is finally over. it's like a big big burden off me. no matter what results im gonna be getting, i think i should be prepared and know my limits by then. so, let it go nerissa see! (: yes!

dramas: yes dramas! i love dramas! i have finished watching save the last dance for me! the korean version. goodness! it's so touching and i actually cried at the end. this love story really has many ups and downs and the ending is just so perfect! although it's just a show and it's directed, i dont believe that it's unrealistic. it's achievable, as long as u have the faith and trust. yes, it is! next up, we have my lucky star! the taiwan drama! ooh. jimmy lin is so cute! wahhahahaha! ey, that love story is nice too! but it has quite a lot of humour in it! due to status and lots of misunderstandings here and there, they just cant seem to get together and have wasted lotsa time! seeing such a couple going through a hard time touches my heart too when they finally rekindle their love! awwww. then again, it's not unrealistic! heh. there's more too! like corner *with love and huanhuanai. oh! i cant wait to watch huanhuanai! hahha. dramas are filling my life with more colours! (: come and share the love and joy with me gals!

scuba diving: hahahhahhahaa diving have been fun and freaky so far! i've only atteneded two sessions! one theory and one pool! no open sea yet! ok, my initial impression of scuba is that we go down into the clear waters to see or touch the fishes, find cute stuff like nemo or dory, see pretty corals or what not. goodness i was so wrong! the first theory session totally freaked the hell out of me!!! i should be prepared to get bitten my trigger fish is not-so-clear waters, see sharks that are only about 3 metres long? and.. ahh i dont know! somehow, during the theory session, i felt like i was being taught to face danger instead of having fun. getting poked by sea urchins. ewwww. hahaha. coach said we should never trust our buddy! but, i still trust cherylkoh! haha. because u are my buddywuddy under the sea! haha.

pool session was quite tiring but fun! haha. ok, had difficulty breathing at first cos we kept breathing through our nose instead of our mouth. then we end up sucking up the limited air in our mask, adding more pressure on our faces! ouch): hahha sucks. people made fools of themselves cos we see water popping out from the snokel. hahah! after a while, it wasnt that difficult handling the snokel. (: yay! the 10min trap water was super tiring! oh one more thing! guess how heavy is the oxygen tank! it's 18kg! eighteen! goodness! that excludes the BC and weights. i think i wont have to walk into the sea for i'll just lose my balance and drop in. hahha! oh my goodness. why issit so heavy! it's just air! ): rarr.

haha those are just some updates about my life so far. other than those, i have trainings and i dont wanna talk too much about it. basically, i suck at squash. haha why am i even training with the team! something is wrong! it could have been a grave mistake! neh! but, i dont wanna give up! but theres just nothing i can do right now to improve myself. all i can do is to cry myself out at night and put up a brave front when i go for training. im helpless and hopeless. i need my pair of hands to get this on. where's my other half? ):

well, i went to swim with cheryl just two days back! haha swimming is good! i have grown to love swimming! (: love the water and not the chlorine. haha you know why! u get to suntan without feeling the heat! aint that great! wheee(: after that we watched the last episode of the last breakthrough! hahah nice show! im gonna be a social worker in kenya next time! mms. after that, we decided to do our nails! french mani! i helped her and she helped me! after a while, things started screwing up! haha! the cotton, the white paint, everything! hahhaa. funny. we took so long to paint just 20 nails! finished it past midnight and we were uber uber sleepy! her nice papa sent me home and i slept right away. next morning, my beautiful nails were kinda screwed. must be my sleep. hahhaha! but, when u look from far, its beautiful! yay!

ooh, what a lengthy entry! mms. anyway, kuek is going to hk. do you know that! her nice papa got her a tix! (: whee. she can shop for me. haha i shall join u guys next year! pinky promise! haha well, i shant make this a wordy entry! hellooooo recess friends! plus jess vic jac. you are dealy missed! by everyone!(:

xoxo

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