Saturday 28 July 2007
i want out.
it has been one week since i returned and every since, i don't know how to feel.
my love once told me that i was strong, strong?
yeah, maybe i was strong enough for some issues, but i am so sick of being like that. i find myself whining at every single non-important matter, can't i use the strength that i had to face all these problems? can't i want to handle all these by myself again?
i have become so dependent, so not like the past, i don't like changes. why can't that apply to this also.
i miss singapore, i miss the people,
most of all,
i miss her.
it has been one week since i returned and every since, i don't know how to feel.
my love once told me that i was strong, strong?
yeah, maybe i was strong enough for some issues, but i am so sick of being like that. i find myself whining at every single non-important matter, can't i use the strength that i had to face all these problems? can't i want to handle all these by myself again?
i have become so dependent, so not like the past, i don't like changes. why can't that apply to this also.
i miss singapore, i miss the people,
most of all,
i miss her.
Saturday 21 July 2007
hello all! nerissa is invading. haha just joking la! actually jessica asked me to blog for her. (: anyhoos. jess is now in perth once again and rebecca is in europe! i kinda forgot if it's east or west. haha! but she'll be coming back to singapore first before she leaves for ny again. yup!
my common tests are coming up again! it seems so short, but 5 weeks of school have passed since the end of june hols. im so sad! why is time passing so fast especially whtn i dont want it to! i hate to work. ): all the tests are just gonna kill. aw that sucks. alright. i just hope all in the recess friends will jia you!
my common tests are coming up again! it seems so short, but 5 weeks of school have passed since the end of june hols. im so sad! why is time passing so fast especially whtn i dont want it to! i hate to work. ): all the tests are just gonna kill. aw that sucks. alright. i just hope all in the recess friends will jia you!
anyway, this is zara. jessica's bestie(:
xoxo(:
Monday 16 July 2007
OMG, OMG, OMGOMGOMG...
i was looking at someone's friendster and i saw pictures from GUIDES! omg!! that was the dance/cheerleading we did for the sji campfire and we did not win that stupid award.:( and the thing is that we were told LAST MIN to do this routine. damn annoying... and everything was so screwed up on that day, we practice until we cannot stand and also our costume was ermm.. a bit screwed up and our make up was TOTALLY weird. but it turned out well. so thats all that mattered i guess.
and so from that incident, jessica realised that she CANNOT DANCE TO SAVE HER OWN LIFE. but still she ALWAYS manages to get herself into such situations. such as,
1. yellow house cheerleading
2. 3/3 cheerleading
3. campfire item (dance/cheerleading)
4. farewell item (dance-cheerleading)
HAHA, i guess someone was ALWAYS THERE TO HELP ME! :) so it was all fine, i don't do any of those things now! HAHA. THANK GOD.
this whole one and a half weeks has been a very pleasant and also UN-pleasant road down memory lane. many things that i kept well hidden and buried has resurfaced. many things that i wish to say out loud remains hidden and well kept.
why if it isn't my fav blog crasher becky.
went to the docs again today, and my family doctor WAS NOT THERE. instead, some noob doctor was there and just repeated the same course of medicine. -.- he even ASKED me if i wanted the medicines? like hello~??and conveniently charged my dad $38 for it??
oh well, nvm, and so i went for dinner with my family, sort of at least... we went to lemon grass and i could not eat much, WHICH IS SO DAMN SAD.
and i am going to get my gown by tmr even if it maybe ugly.
knowing something and applying it is 2 totally different things. some things will never be accepted. never.
went to the docs again today, and my family doctor WAS NOT THERE. instead, some noob doctor was there and just repeated the same course of medicine. -.- he even ASKED me if i wanted the medicines? like hello~??and conveniently charged my dad $38 for it??
oh well, nvm, and so i went for dinner with my family, sort of at least... we went to lemon grass and i could not eat much, WHICH IS SO DAMN SAD.
and i am going to get my gown by tmr even if it maybe ugly.
knowing something and applying it is 2 totally different things. some things will never be accepted. never.
Sunday 15 July 2007
hello its becky (:
today was the first day since monday that i havent seen kuekie. it actually feels kinda funny:/
but then again, im freed from her lame jokes. phew!
today i woke up at 830 and we were so early for church we could even get breakfast before stepping into church, and i ended up eating quite alot, and i kept wanting to fart in church -.-
i surprisingly decided to go for fellowship and it was quite good i must say. its interesting seeing how people change over time. yepp. i have three and a half more days till i head to europe. and when im back, the hols end. omg. i think im kinda having holiday blues. crap!
anyhows here're some captured memories for you guys.
love you all!
today i felt bright, tall, big, seen-from-a-mile-away...
...as a lamppost
HAHA.
went out to see my loved one this morning, only to realise that i cannot let go. at least i thought i could but i cannot.
followed to meet py and her bf at novena because the rest were at some other venue and we were going to watch harry potter at some oolu-fied cinema because then we would get seats.then the rest just met us at the place itself.
the movie was ok, nothing much, and after which i went to play pool. BAD IDEA. and so halfway becky left and left me there as A LAMPPOST. argh. hahaha, oh well...
we tried to go to esplanade to watch the ndp fireworks, only to find out the show ended when we were there.
and i still feel like crap. stupid medicine and stupid illness. ARGH. GO AWAY PLS.
and also, to continue the list that i posted previously,
things we share in common (including interests)
1. love for TAKUYA KIMURA.(interest)
2. love for PRIDE(interest)
3. our shortness(common)
4. love for taxis
5. same birthdays (well...almost anyways)
6. SAME FIRST 4 NO OF HP NO. 9788****
cool right? okok, thats all for now again, until the next instalment of "what becky and kuek have in common"
...as a lamppost
HAHA.
went out to see my loved one this morning, only to realise that i cannot let go. at least i thought i could but i cannot.
followed to meet py and her bf at novena because the rest were at some other venue and we were going to watch harry potter at some oolu-fied cinema because then we would get seats.then the rest just met us at the place itself.
the movie was ok, nothing much, and after which i went to play pool. BAD IDEA. and so halfway becky left and left me there as A LAMPPOST. argh. hahaha, oh well...
we tried to go to esplanade to watch the ndp fireworks, only to find out the show ended when we were there.
and i still feel like crap. stupid medicine and stupid illness. ARGH. GO AWAY PLS.
and also, to continue the list that i posted previously,
things we share in common (including interests)
1. love for TAKUYA KIMURA.(interest)
2. love for PRIDE(interest)
3. our shortness(common)
4. love for taxis
5. same birthdays (well...almost anyways)
6. SAME FIRST 4 NO OF HP NO. 9788****
cool right? okok, thats all for now again, until the next instalment of "what becky and kuek have in common"
Saturday 14 July 2007
my first visit to k box.
and i did not know how to sing like almost all the songs because i cannot read the chinese words, and because i was with NICOLE LOW( EX CHIOR PRESIDENT). that actually sang in tune. and me and jos were just yelling. it was damn funny. and i sang the song wrongly and tio suan like a million times. it was so damn fun.
and i WALKED HOME AT ELEVEN O CLOCK AT NIGHT!!!!!
WALKED. WALKED.
jessica is happy. even though her legs are fairer then her gradma's and she is FAT.
ok, here are a list of things that i share with becky, some we bought together, some we just HAPPEN to have the same things.
1. eyore PEZ dispenser
2. top shop flats
3. far east flats
4. laptop
5. zara winter coat
6. triumph bra
7. project shop pouch
8. NAILS!!!
9. pillow case
10. EX samual and kevin jeans
11. EX giordano pants
12. EX giordano tank top
13. luggage
14. it started with a kiss vcd (one each)
15. TAKUYA KIMURA PIC
16. EX ipod mini
17. NEW ipod red
18. pro-active facial products
19. adidas jacket
20. body shop lip blam
21. panic productively t shirt
that all we can think of now.
TO BE CONTINUED..........
Thursday 12 July 2007
i have pictures from like a million years ago, when i was still in my ij uniform!!
we were shopping for our grad night gowns of which was damn a big deal last year, and i cannot believe that i have to shop for a bloody dress again when i am back in singapore for my end of the year grad night just because i cannot wear short dress. humph! damn troublesome to shop for gowns on a budget.
and of course, because my dear josceline foo qing hui who took HALF A YEAR to send me the pics, i got pictures from my farewell in jan. and also the fish and co dinner and also the chomp chomp thingy. and the most recent ktv outing photos! :) i shall post the best from every occasion!
and i am sick, can you believe it? i am home for 2 weeks and i am sick? i don't even really know what i am typing now because of my stupid drowsy medcine. and i need more and better control, hate the way i am now.
Saturday 7 July 2007
I AM HOMEEEEEEEEE..
this was everyones reaction,
OMGGGGG, JESSICAAAAAAAA!!! OMGOMGOMG,
wait, did you get fatter?
like i know i am fatter, DON'T RUB IT IN.
ITS WINTER WEIGHT I TELL YOU! WINTER WEIGHTTTTT!!!! humph.
this was everyones reaction,
OMGGGGG, JESSICAAAAAAAA!!! OMGOMGOMG,
wait, did you get fatter?
like i know i am fatter, DON'T RUB IT IN.
ITS WINTER WEIGHT I TELL YOU! WINTER WEIGHTTTTT!!!! humph.
Thursday 5 July 2007
HEY KUEKSTER WUSSUP XD
HOHO ITS FUNGUS!
i actually had no contact with you yesterday that felt rather awkward so i had to drop that msg and were you the one that called? i had two missed calls from a (no number). unfortunately it was really inconvienient to return your call. lol was that even you? maybe it wasnt you.. ah damnit u cant answer me from here! :/ having nothing to do at work makes me crave for jessica's anticlimactic bullshit.
but guess what- you're coming tmr OMG. jus a warning for you, singapore is like an enormous hot air balloon and its getting hotter day, by day, by day by day by day! it burns like hell, and the occasional wind is like hairdryer.
but who cares you get to see meee -jumps up and down-
ok i have to get back to work now, enough of slacking! see you soon hun :)
HOHO ITS FUNGUS!
i actually had no contact with you yesterday that felt rather awkward so i had to drop that msg and were you the one that called? i had two missed calls from a (no number). unfortunately it was really inconvienient to return your call. lol was that even you? maybe it wasnt you.. ah damnit u cant answer me from here! :/ having nothing to do at work makes me crave for jessica's anticlimactic bullshit.
but guess what- you're coming tmr OMG. jus a warning for you, singapore is like an enormous hot air balloon and its getting hotter day, by day, by day by day by day! it burns like hell, and the occasional wind is like hairdryer.
but who cares you get to see meee -jumps up and down-
ok i have to get back to work now, enough of slacking! see you soon hun :)